5 Days To Remmie

Before I begin to tell you about what seems to be a nightmare know that the series of events that took place gave me the greatest gift and reflecting back on my 5 days in the hospital does not, for one second, hold me back from doing it all over again.

June 20th, a date that could have been mistaken for Halloween since I resembled a pumpkin. I was swollen beyond belief - in all reality, I was so swollen that it had our Doctor concerned. She confirmed that if I started to feel excruciating headaches then it was time to deliver as I was at risk of preeclampsia. Mind you, the only time I had heard of preeclampsia was when Kim Kardashian had it and I just thought she was being overly dramatic per usual.

The next day I was expected to function off little to no sleep. Sure, it could have been mind over matter but I was up all night with a headache that felt as though my brain was going to explode. I wanted to avoid a false hospital visit (again) so I called our nurse line. She recommended I go to the hospital but I wanted to be 100% sure so I asked her to call our Doctor, who just so happen to be on call at the hospital that day. Sure as shit, the Doc says pack your bags and get your butt here.


I had always pictured that moment putting me in a panic but I actually stayed quite calm. I even stayed at work for about an hour longer to assure I tightened up any loose ends before maternity leave (but forgot to put on my automatic reply, whoops!). Josh was (im)patiently waiting for me at home.

I had been packed for weeks. I'm a planner. I crossed off all 486 (exaggeration) things I had listed, so I thought. As I prepared to go to the hospital I couldn't even comprehend what I was doing. What I did know is that I had no idea about what the next few days were about to bring.

June 21st, 10:00 AM

We arrived, luggage in tow! Just like we were supposed to and rehearsed during our hospital tour. And there we were in triage for hours. A rush of disappointed came over me... another false alarm, ugh! Then we heard the news, both good and bad.

Good: We were not leaving this hospital without a baby.

Bad: It could take days... and they weren't joking.

June 21, 1:30 PM

We got settled into our room, took pics and enjoyed the amazing hospital food. The chicken strips at CentreCare are delish! Nurses pumped me full of fluids and Pitocin*. Dr. M came in and gave me a membrane sweep (which hurts like hell, btw) and we wait.

June 22, 4:30 AM

I fast forwarded quite a bit so I didn’t put you to sleep but at this time, I haven’t dilated in the slightest. My mindset of a natural birth was out the window - contractions are menstrual cramps x 4690! Luckily, my water broke and was able to receive an epidural*. Prior to labor, people told me HORROR stories about the epidural but truly it wasn't bad! The excruciating pain of contractions outweighs the brief feeling of discomfort you receive with the epidural.

The epidural was in and we wait and wait...

June 22, 2:30 PM

As Josh and I are casually talking a rush of nurses enter our room in a panic. What the hell! They flip me to my stomach, place a mask on my face and shove some doo-dad up my minnie and apparently on my child's head, what!! Turns out, her heart dropped, flat lined but once we turned she bounced back. She apparently didn't like the way I was laying. How dramatic!

June 22, 10:30 PM

We're exhausted! I'm in pain (extreme discomfort for how long I've been lying still). I feel awful, I yelled at those incredibly patient and sweet nurses who only attempted to give me comfort but at the time, I need an outlet and Josh was sleeping.

We’ve been playing tiptoe with the Pitocin as every time they would increase my dose then my blood pressure would spike therefore they had to stop the Pitocin dose. At this point, I was begging for a c-section. If she doesn’t want to come out on her own, well let’s force her! This little girl was being beyond stubborn - she must get that from her Grandma.

June 23, 9:00 AM

Finally, some freaking movement! Come on, baby girl! At this time, they began including Magnesium* to prevent seizures (associated with preeclampsia). Magnesium is a mineral that's crucial to the body's function. Magnesium helps keep blood pressure normal, bones strong, and the heart rhythm steady. Once they begin injecting Magnesium into your system, you will quickly begin feeling ill, to the point of regurgitating. It’s absolutely horrid (but necessary). I recommend grabbing a puke bag immediately along with a full glass of water.

June 23rd, 1:06 PM


After an hour of pushing, Remmie Ann Gondeck made her appearance and at that moment, I was also reborn.

Remmie Ann Gondeck
June 23rd, 2017 at 1:06 PM
7lbs 2 ounces and 19 ½ inches long

To this day, four months later, I am still needing to pinch myself daily. This sweet, beautiful, goofy yet overly dramatic little human being is all mine? Every day for the next 100 years? It’s a surreal moment knowing that you gave life to something so precious.

You hear about hospital horror stories all the time. Other women will put you in a panic when it comes to giving birth, the epidural, tearing which at times can scare the daylights out of someone (I know I was terrified).

What they don’t tell you is that no matter the length of labor, the degree of tear or c-section or discomfort of pregnancy, it all goes away once you hold that package for the first time.

As I briefly describe the events of my labor and delivery, the pain and discomfort I endured, I would do it all over again tomorrow.

It’s all worth it.


*Pitocin: An induction with Pitocin means your doctor or midwife will induce your labor using a medicine called Pitocin, which is a synthetic version of oxytocin. Oxytocin is the hormone that your body naturally produces to induce contractions, as well as serving as the famous "love" hormone.

*Epidural: Epidural anesthesia is a regional anesthesia that blocks pain in a particular region of the body.

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